Mocha Diaries: Mourning Changing Friendships

Mocha Diaries: Mourning Changing Friendships

I have been mulling over this topic by myself for the past few months. For a long time the thought had always existed, but I never really probed into it more, because I was in a place where I could only focus on getting by day-to-day. Since I have been home for a while now, I’ve been lucky enough to have the space to mull over my thoughts without having too much background noise. This is the one place where…

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Mocha Diaries: My Friend, Anxiety

Mocha Diaries: My Friend, Anxiety

For a long time, I thought I was a person who ebbed in and out of minor low-lying depression. I never imagined I actually had anxiety problems as well. I occasionally have bouts of anxiety, which are normally triggered by something small. Normally it isn’t the end of the world, but I’ve realized if I have felt stressed about something for a few days to weeks then at some point anxiety is bound to hit me until I can calm…

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Mocha Diaries: FOMO

Mocha Diaries: FOMO

Ever since I can remember I have suffered from FOMO ( Fear of missing out). I never really knew why it was so important to me to be like everyone else and have a similar existence, but I feared if I didn’t then I would regret it. I remember in high school it was particularly strong. I had a fear of missing out on homecoming and prom, even though I had no interest in either and I actually wish I…

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Mocha Diaries: The Power of No

Mocha Diaries: The Power of No

When I was young I was a very timid child outside of the house. It was almost like I had split personalities inside and outside. My youngest sister brought this to my attention when I was in high school and was in utter disbelief that I was the same person in school as I was at home. Scenarios can makes us change to fit in or stand out. I think my early years of being overly shy when meeting strangers…

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Mocha Diaries: The Clouds Are Lifting

Mocha Diaries: The Clouds Are Lifting

It has been a while now since the clouds have been lifting out of my life. That’s my little metaphor for my depression and anxiety issues at hand. Since I turned 30 I have been on a slow but steady incline toward a more sound mind. I’m not sure what exactly triggered it, but I’m thankful that my mind is more peaceful than it has been in a decade or two.

Mocha Diaries: Of Blue Skies and Kimchi Cravings

Mocha Diaries: Of Blue Skies and Kimchi Cravings

I’ve been home for almost 5 months and the adjustment has not been easy on me. I always felt toward the end of my stay in Korea that I didn’t belong or quite fit in. Now being home I feel the same way. It was a dreaded feeling I carried deep in my chest that I didn’t really belong or fit in anywhere. I’ve always felt odd, like I was the odd woman out. Never quite fitting in, always somehow…

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I’ve Got No Energy For You Now

I’ve Got No Energy For You Now

When I was in middle school and high school I used to write a lot of poetry, not that it was great but I enjoyed expressing myself that way. Now I don’t do it, but maybe once or twice a year and it is a fleeting thing that normally gets thrown out and never sees the light of day. I’m not the best poet, I don’t really follow any rules, it’s just a way and format to express myself as…

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USA Road Trip: Part 2

USA Road Trip: Part 2

We left Colorado on Tuesday afternoon and drove until we were about an hour away from the Four Corners Monument. We slept in the hotel for the night since we knew we’d be camping for the next few days without being able to use a shower. There are no showers at most primitive camping sites in case you were wondering. We woke up super early and flew into the Four Corners Monument right as it opened at 8 a.m. We…

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USA Road Trip: Part 1

USA Road Trip: Part 1

We’ve been on the road for 13 days at this point. In so many ways it feels like it been shorter or longer than that. My sister and I didn’t really set out with a clear goal for this trip except for visiting a few friends along the way.

Colorado Reunion

Colorado Reunion

At the end of May a few friends and I flee from Connecticut to Denver, where we met up with two other friends flying in from Boston. It was a friend reunion of 5 years! I’m sure everyone else has seen each other during the 4 years I was gone, but I haven’t seen some of these individuals in about 5 years, so it was really exciting.