About a few months before I decided that I was going to move back to the states after my last contract in South Korea, my mom and I talked about meeting up somewhere. I told her I refused to fly back to the states for my vacation, as it seemed like a waste to me. I countered with Bali, but the flight was too long for my parents, so we settled on Hawaii. It was smack dab in the middle…
The last few days have been a little rough on me. Not that anything substantial has happened in my life to make it that way, it’s just a bunch of moments of sadness and frustration with myself that have overwhelmed me a little here and a little there.
The Pooping Grounds. Shitter. Wash Closet. The Porcelain Throne. The Bathroom. Whatever you want to call the place you do your business let’s talk about it!
On my recent trip to Amdo, Tibet, I spent most of my time in Ngaba Prefecture, (Chinese: Aba) This trip was a bit different than the last time as I would be able to experience, Losar, Tibetan Lunar New Year, and I also would get the chance to teach English to Tibetan Students.
I haven’t celebrated Losar in many years, and normally I just get to eat the leftover khapsey. Which I love to dip into tea and munch away! Losar is the Tibetan Lunar New Year, which happens to fall around the same time as the Chinese Lunar New Year and Korean Lunar New Year. Although sometimes Losar can fall at a different time than the other New Year’s as well.
In Between Land. That’s where I am. Where is in between land? It’s anywhere between where you were and where you will go! It can even be a state of mind. In between land is kind of a rough place to be. I’ve been back home for 5 weeks now and I should be adjusted to life, but I’m not. I have no semblance of a life I was used to as I reverted back to how my life was…
I always start out so excited and ambitious with languages and then well…I fall off that high horse real quick. I love learning languages, but I’m lazy. Sometimes I make a lot of progress only to backtrack, because I haven’t opened up a book in a month or two. Which is not how one becomes better at language it actually makes the process that much slower and aggravating.
I’ve long believed that the people we meet, we meet for a reason. I especially feel this more since I live in a city at the moment. Why are we only friends with certain people? Why are we not crossing paths with all those who pass by us on a daily basis? Why doesn’t everyone in the world know everyone? Granted I think most of us couldn’t keep 7 billion names straight if we tried, but it is something to…
The last few months I’ve been really looking inwards and asking myself some of the harder questions in life. Not just on a superficial level, but on a level I know I need to ask myself, why do I do this? Why am I okay with this? What needs to change? What is this teaching me?
I’m not a person with super lofty dreams. I’m not a planner which when you want things doesn’t help them appear in your life. The last 6 years of my life have been more of a rough patch than I would like to admit. I’ve grown a lot as a person and I felt that it was important to finally give praise to myself for the world to know I’m also facing my demon: the envy monster.