Well of Patience

This well of patience so deep and far it flows until recently it seemed this patience was so very deep Lately though my reaction to your moods and actions has caught me off guard asking myself, where has my patience run off to? This well of patience of mine ran so deep so slow and smooth and yet it seems to dry up when I am with you This well of patience of mine has…

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37 Aspirations for Myself

Spend quality time with my daughter, Soby Communicate better with my husband in Tibetan Study Tibetan seriously so that I can recognize my own improvement Drink less coffee – perhaps I will sleep better Eat less crap – but still, enjoy it in celebration Exercise five times a week Reach a healthy weight and maintain it Become stronger mentally and physically Sit and meditate daily Try aphantasia imagery exercises Blog more often Read more books…

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Writer’s Block

For the past year or two, I have had nothing but writer’s block it feels like. What can I write? Why should I write? Do I even have anything to say? Sometimes I think I don’t have the time for the blog, but that is not true. I do have the time, I do not write. Writing has always been my outlet in life for how I am feeling. Whenever there was a tough feeling…

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October 2022 Update

I haven’t written on this blog in 7 months, and I am not surprised. I have thought about it often and realized I have left the blog unloved, perhaps looking back I can realize my lack of writing is also tied to how I am doing on some inner level along with the fact my daughter and I are still apart. I haven’t written a post about my feelings on it, and yet I think…

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A Part of Me Apart From You

Before dawn lit the sky We had to part amid Tears and screams of ‘Ama’ Penetrating the cold air I passed you to your grandmother Whispering, “I love you” and giving a quick kiss Swiftly the door was shut The two of us cried for each other Your arms reaching for me While mine weighed heavily at my side Slowly the window was rolled up to drown out your cries This mother of yours never…

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36 Affirmations

Happy 36th birthday to me and I am back with a list. Because that is the tradition I started at 30 and I will keep it going. This year I chose affirmations for myself to read now and then to give myself a little boost. A few of these affirmations are actually aspirations for me like numbers 8 and 9. A few also tell me that I can be successful at change and that I…

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Budding Language

A few close friends and family know that I have been a little on edge about my daughter’s language development due to the fact that when we walk outside everyone’s child is monolingual and they seem to possess a higher language ability than my own daughter. This creates unnecessary worry and anxiety in me than I need, but I have been asking around and learning different opinions and facts on this. For the record, my…

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A Lack of Interests

My poor blog has had little love over the last few months, but it is not the only thing that I have paid less attention to. Since becoming a mom, some of the things I like to do have fallen to the side as I tend to end up scrolling social media instead when I am ‘resting.’ But is that even resting? I find it gives me more anxiety about life than it should. Sadly,…

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I Am A Cosleeper

If you had asked me when I was younger if I would have bed-shared, I may have said no. But that answer would have been a lie as it goes against who I have always been as a person. When I was 16, I babysat my newborn cousin for 40 hours a week during one summer. When it was time for a nap, she would fall asleep many times on my chest while I watched…

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