Finding Myself in 2023

I can’t believe this is my first post of 2023. This year one of my goals was to at least blog once a month and yet as you can see, we are in the 4th month of the year and I am finally making a blog post. This year is about me and finding myself. So far I have been struggling and shooting myself in the foot with my own goals.

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37 Aspirations for Myself

Spend quality time with my daughter, Soby Communicate better with my husband in Tibetan Study Tibetan seriously so that I can recognize my own improvement Drink less coffee – perhaps I will sleep better Eat less crap – but still, enjoy it in celebration Exercise five times a week Reach a healthy weight and maintain it Become stronger mentally and physically Sit and meditate daily Try aphantasia imagery exercises Blog more often Read more books…

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A Part of Me Apart From You

Before dawn lit the sky We had to part amid Tears and screams of ‘Ama’ Penetrating the cold air I passed you to your grandmother Whispering, “I love you” and giving a quick kiss Swiftly the door was shut The two of us cried for each other Your arms reaching for me While mine weighed heavily at my side Slowly the window was rolled up to drown out your cries This mother of yours never…

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36 Affirmations

Happy 36th birthday to me and I am back with a list. Because that is the tradition I started at 30 and I will keep it going. This year I chose affirmations for myself to read now and then to give myself a little boost. A few of these affirmations are actually aspirations for me like numbers 8 and 9. A few also tell me that I can be successful at change and that I…

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A Lack of Interests

My poor blog has had little love over the last few months, but it is not the only thing that I have paid less attention to. Since becoming a mom, some of the things I like to do have fallen to the side as I tend to end up scrolling social media instead when I am ‘resting.’ But is that even resting? I find it gives me more anxiety about life than it should. Sadly,…

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Motherhood

Motherhood I have always dreamed of since childhood Motherhood was once what I thought might never happen Motherhood I have now entered and yet Motherhood is not what I envisioned Motherhood isn’t the one of my dreams Motherhood came crashing down on me unexpectedly Motherhood that wasn’t ready for a preemie Motherhood that has been dotted with anxiety Motherhood during a pandemic Motherhood with limited interaction Motherhood felt with moments of isolation Motherhood filled with…

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Embodying Health

For over the past month, I’ve been at battle with myself and my habits in my head. Luckily, I learned my sister was about to embark on a new health journey and I decided to join in. My current effort in the first week, I failed on five and a half days. My first two and a half days I did awesome , minus not exercising. Here I am sitting down after having eaten three…

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