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Month: October 2016

Language Use and Its Fucking Relationships

Language Use and Its Fucking Relationships

Before I even get started I already know my mother is going to say, “Watch your fuckin’ mouth your grandparents read this!” Yes, I know, thanks for the warning mom. Today as I was leaving work I had this fantastical conversation in my head. Fucking marvelous! What was it? The correlation between language use and its fucking relationships. It was a pretty brilliant conversation and now I need to recall what I was thinking three hours ago, so shit let’s…

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Mocha Diaries: Why Don’t I Put Myself First?

Mocha Diaries: Why Don’t I Put Myself First?

My hair is always a hot mess I always ask myself this question: Why don’t I put myself first? I hear from others all the time to learn to put myself first. That is always easier said than done and there is always a reason as to why I haven’t done it yet. One problem I have realized from having low self-esteem is that when you don’t value yourself you try to find redemption from others. I need a way…

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Beyond the Fence

Beyond the Fence

I always wondered how we form our political beliefs. I realized for me it always stems from those closest to us or someone we have interacted with on a regular basis. The good old dream is to live in a house with a white picket fence. The fence is really symbolic of a lot of things if you dive into it. It draws a clear line of what is mine and what is everyone else’s. It alerts others by letting…

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Mocha Diaries: Dancing with the Unknown

Mocha Diaries: Dancing with the Unknown

Everyone has a fear or two. For the longest time I just thought that my fear of death was the only one I had. As I have gotten older I’ve begun to realize that my fear of death actually stems from  my fear of the unknown.

Mocha Diaries: Why do I give up easily?

Mocha Diaries: Why do I give up easily?

Ever met a person that persistently can’t make ends meet? Or they just get so close and say, “Nope! I don’t think I can do this!”  It’s funny a lot of people give me praise for learning languages, or traveling, etc, but most people don’t realize that I don’t consider myself successful in them.

In Silence I Stand

In Silence I Stand

Imagine a national anthem playing in the background and the majority doing their part standing and reciting that anthem by heart. Do you see someone deviating from the norm? If so what are they doing? Are they sitting? Kneeling? Standing in silence?  Did you imagine the last round of sports stars inspired by Colin Kaepernick? Did you imagine a person standing in silence? Did you judge them? Can you see their face? Who do you see?

Mocha Diaries: Why do I self-sabotage? : Laziness

Mocha Diaries: Why do I self-sabotage? : Laziness

Welcome to the Mocha Diaries! Mocha has been MIA for a while and it was high time she was found. { After  a recent conversation with a good friend back home that persuaded me to dig deeper as to why things bother me and find those answers. She said the better you understand yourself the easier it will be to love yourself and be your best friend. So with a homework assignment on hand I’ve decided to transcribe what I have…

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Mocha Diaries: Why do I self-sabotage? : Binge-eating

Mocha Diaries: Why do I self-sabotage? : Binge-eating

Self-sabotage works in many ways and takes many forms. I found out that by digging deeper laziness was a prime player in my self-sabotaging. But now it is time to address its partner in crime: binge-eating. Binge eating not only has the connotation of being an eating disorder, but it also is one of my only mechanisms for coping with emotions.